Meme; Letters, Day 4

[likedillinger]

✓ Day 4 → Your sibling (or closest relative)
✓ Verse: BNW.
✓ getyourownpie 

Sam.

I don't know what I'm supposed to say anymore, but you're crazy if you think it's ever gonna be "goodbye".

So maybe there's not a snowball's chance in hell this is even gonna work.  And if it does, we both know trapping him is trapping you if we do this crazy plan.

I promised that sonuvabitch I'd let you walk into it anyways.

You know what?

I lied.

I keep telling myself I could have been stronger for you, or a better brother, kept you around instead of driving you away.  Done something to protect you from this a long time ago.  That somewhere along the line, I screwed up.

But I'm not gonna stop fighting, Sammy.  I'm not giving in another inch.

I refuse to let it really end this way.

Maybe God's a dick, maybe he really did just walk away and not give a shit.

But I won't walk.

I've got your back.

Don't ever doubt that.

Dean.