likedillinger: (| fuck my life)
✓ Day 7 → Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
✓ Verse: BNW


Cassie

I don't know where you are now.  Or what you're doing.  Or how you're reacting to all these crazy things happening in the world.

I do wonder if they make you stop and think of me.  Hell, maybe just in that they piss you off the same as I always did.

Sometimes I'm tempted to go find out.  But it feels like six lifetimes ago, everything we had.  It sorta was.

I don't know even know why I'm writing this.  I guess I just want you to know that back when I could still imagine the road ending somewhere, I liked imagining it was gonna end back with you.  I know you never believed it, but doesn't change facts, that you were the first one who ever made me even consider a happy ending.  

Don't think you'd really recognize me anymore, though. 

Guess that's one reason I can't go back now.

Though the sex might be worth it.  

Hope you're happy safe out there.

Dean.
likedillinger: (| i'm kind of a big deal)
Player Information:

Name or Handle: Arden
LJ: [livejournal.com profile] dancinpenguins 
Email: kiwi4ever13[at]hotmail[dot]com
AIM or MSN name: thegreatmuldini
Any current characters here?:  THAT IS LESS THAN POSSIBLE 8|
Would you like a protocol droid?:   Only the assassinating kind.  So.  No.  I'm good. o7

STAR WARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRS )
likedillinger: (| ... i was so sure she was 18)
Prompt: Our Space by the Cardigans
Characters: Dean Winchester and Elle Bishop
Timeline/Verse: Everybody's Fucked verse, non-binding.
Disclaimer:  I don't own Supernatural, or Heroes.  Dean is
[livejournal.com profile] likedillinger and Elle is [livejournal.com profile] blueshocks .

And with that, I have finally conquered this drabble meme!  \o/

my dear, please see my dear
how we invented the fear
inside that space
no one could interfere
my dear, please see my dear
how we invented the tears
inside that space
no one could interfere


Hell on earth didn't come in storms of fire - or at least, it didn't stay that way. 

It was cold, and it was empty - and the reality of it was in the way it scraped out the survivors from the inside out.  

Armageddon came internally.

Maybe he was hoping she'd snap, and he'd go the way of her last Dean.  It'd be easier that way, some days. 

He didn't go into her arms to feel alive.  He went with a death wish. 

She never fucking followed through. 

He wondered what she was getting out of this some days, but he figured it might be the same thing he got sometimes.  Pretending.  Or self-loathing.  Both were pretty popular hobbies in the post-Apocalyptic era.

He thought he might hate her.  But it required an effort of emotion he didn't feel like summoning up.

So they just existed.  Shared space.  Shared nothing. 

It was theirs, at least.  That was something.
likedillinger: (| blondes have more fun)
✓ Day 6 → A stranger
✓ Verse: BNW


Dear... whatever your name was

So I'm not actually an FBI agent.  My name's not Dave Coverdale.  And when I said I'd never seen a girl as beautiful, or done it on a pool table in a bar after hours... I was lying.  In fact, pretty much everything that came outta my mouth the entire short time we knew each other was a lie.

I don't think you ever even told me your name.  For all I know, you had a boyfriend, or a fiancee or a husband.  Hell, maybe it was even your first time.

I don't really think about that kinda thing.  Call me selfish.

But I wasn't lyin' when I said I wouldn't forget you.  I remember most all of you, in your own way.

It's more than just a nice distraction to have an escape from what I really do.  It's kinda necessary.  

That's probably not what you'd wanna hear, but it's worth thankin' you for anyway.

It's Dean, by the way.
likedillinger: (| my brooding would impress even angel)
✓ Day 5 → Your dreams
✓ Verse: BNW.
[livejournal.com profile] elsolgirl 

Carmen.

I used to wonder if you weren't just something that came outta my head and nothing more.  Or if you were real.  And out there somewhere.  More than that,  I used to wonder if what we could've had was real, even with the life I live here.

Meeting you, actually running into you, knowing already you could be everything I wanted...

I probably seem freaking crazy for passing that up.  Not that you know anyway.  To you I'm just another guy who never came back around.

But the truth is I'm not who I was in the world where we worked out, and I'm not even the same guy who dreamed you up.  

I'm pretty sure you couldn't love that guy.  And I'm damn sure you'd never understand him, or what he's gone through.  

To be honest?

I wouldn't want you to.

Hell, I wish I didn't understand it.

I hope you're happy though, wherever you are.  That's more than I could probably have given you.

And I still buy your beer.  You're a pretty convincing sales pitch.

Dean.